guess someone feels im pushing all faults to kaming? so , kaming got phobia of my attitude , den what abt me? im nort afraid of getting timed agains. my phobia is bigger than his , thats why im always so insecure. whenever he says he's going to where ever , ie feel so afraid he's going to meet another girl. think ie wasnt afraid?!
Yes , ie admit my attitude is like fcuking horrible , like fcuking hell horrible. its impossible for u ppl to imagine. but seriously lahs. im still not to that extend whr ie have gone insane and attitude ard FOR NOTHING. there is shure a reason behind it . what that caused me to get angry . what that caused me to explored , did it ever occur to u?
yups , ie ever unreasonably attitude him in far east . this up to know , ie noe im fcuking hell wrong for doing that . but u cant use the word phobia as if u wan say phobia . common lahs. iie suffered a bigger phobia.
even if ie have a super sucky attitude , in the end , in a r/s most imptly is loyality and trust . He spoilt it all . we tgt for only 1 months+ he alr spoilt the trust that we are building up . ie dunnoe why ie forgiven him at that time , till now sometime ie ask myself maybe ie shuld have let go at that time den the hurt wouldnt be so great now. but in the end , each time when ie feel maybe he's changed , he will timed me agains. everytime new faces appear. new girl , as tho having me wasnt ever enuff.
but , im not gonna talk abt that anymore.
ie just wanna say , we both got our wrong. He is a good bf , rly. ie can say , the bestest bestest BESTTTTEST one ie ever had . a very good one thats why ie will love him so much .
he's flaws is he's still nort rdy to settle down in a r/s with ONE girl bahs. But , to me .. this is alr too much for me to accept cause ie expect that since he's my only bf , ie wan to be his only gf. But ie cant.
ie thought by holding on to him , ie can slowly change my flaws and he slowly settling down with me . but in the end , we create more reasons to hate each other. ask me if ie hate him , ie will say yes. ie fcuking hate him .. hate him for letting me fall in love with him when he wasnt rdy to settle down in this r/s.
My flaws is my attitude , this ie noe myself . he says it all the time also . so ,
ie guess what im trying to say is. maybe we are nort match for each other ? cause im looking for a guy who is willing to settle down in a r/s . love one girl , only care for one girl . and nort loving girl A , next talking to girl B slowly feeling girl B is also nort bad . gaining feelings for girl B yet also still love girl A . den dont knoe when , Girl C will appear .
and im also not match for him as he's looking for a girl who wont attitude him . nort a girl who will scream at in the public , or spamming calling his hp.
and ie seriously hope that whoever he is with now . that he wont timed the girl too .
To all the guys : If u are nort rdy to settle down , dun fcuking jio a girl . den treat them super good . let them slowly falling for u deeply den smash their hearts. cause u airnt us , u wont noe how much pain we have to go thru .
it may look simple , just forgeting this person , moving on with our lives. But , during the process of forgetting this person is alr a process of going thru HELL , and slowly moving on dragging ourself out of the hell cave when all our body are cover with blood and scars. yes , the scars is permanent and it might change our life forever. u airnt us , u guys wunt noe how much hurt u will cause us Oka?
p/s : ie wunt ever regret ever once loving u , ie wunt regret holding on to u for so long . ie wunt regret every slightest thing that happened to us . regardless happy / sad . cause ie noe they are part of my life story , no use regretting when its alr happened. instead , ie will treasure them and making sure ie wunt ever repeat any mistake that will repeat my misery. p/s : maybe 10 years down the road , we spot each other , this time both of us changed , who knows .... our story might begin again . hahahha , nah . joking. p/s : Last with ur gf alrights , longer den us. cause if u dun , ie will be laughing at u . remebered u said ' she gave me a very good impression ' it rly sound as tho she is super goood , so , make shure u both last :)
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